I thought it was hilarious. (:
Saturday, November 22, 2008
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Just some things I need to moan about
Been a while since anyone posted anything, and I'm afraid this one isnt going to be a happy one.
Been on A&E these past 2 weeks and it's been a really rough time. I feel so out of my depth all the time, as this is the first time we are doing A&E ever and we've not really been taught much about managing the VERY acute stuff. I mean, I think I'm ok on majors... you know, with the collapses and the heart attacks and the abdominal pains... It's the minors that really throw me off. Nobody's taught us anything about sprains and strains and dislocated fingers. Nobody's taught us about handling facial grazes and lacerations and foreign bodies in various bodily orifices. But the doctors just expect us to go and see these patients for the first time (and alone!) and know what to do.
I've made a couple of silly mistakes, and the comments and looks I've been getting have been most unforgiving. I feel so tired from this rotation. I'm doing bloody shifts at all kinds of ungodly hours and yet the department is so busy that nobody has time to teach (not their fault of course) and I dont have the chance to learn.
Also, it's amazing what one month of holiday can do to your knowledge as well... the stuff that I learnt so hard for the finals have all conveniently dissipated into thin air. Where did all my knowledge go? I feel so frustrated. I just want to be a competent and safe practitioner. Why does this seem so difficult?
Being on A and E has been emotionally draining too. Too many people who are too sick come through and it gets really really difficult. Take last Thursday for example... a man who had just killed his wife stabbed himself with a pair of scissors and was brought in by the police. When I saw him, he had those scissors pushed all the way down to the hilt, sticking out of his chest, and blood all over his face. Not a very pretty sight at all. And the department was immediately thrown into a frenzy as the trauma team, the police, the lung specialists and every other k-po doctor/nurse was trying to find out what happened/trying to save this dude. When he was finally transferred to another hospital to be taken to theatre, another man came in with a cardiac arrest.
My consultant was keen for us medical students to help out with the resuscitation, so he had us taking turns doing chest compressions whilst he tried to intubate and ventilate the guy and the other doctors loaded him up with dose after dose of adrenaline. However, they decided that all was not looking too good for the man and thus invited his family to come and see him (possibly for the last time 'alive') whilst we attempted to save his life. So there I was, pumping this man's heart with all my might as his family stood at the side looking on in shock and sorrow. I prayed for him as we did what we had to do, until the consultant asked us what time it was.
8.49pm. My consultant shut the man's eyes for the last time. We walked out of the cubicle. The family completely broke down in front of us. It was an awful, awful time. This was definitely a slice of the medicine pie that I can do without.
Anyway, I guess that's enough of my unloading. I'm sorry if you didnt understand a single word of what has been written (I have tried to make it as layman as possible), but I wanted to get things off my chest more than anything. I hope I've not upset anyone with any graphic details whatsoever.
Medicine is great in many ways, but it sucks big time when you dont know what to do, and when your patients die on you.
I pray that God will help me through the rest of this difficult difficult rotation. I'm not asking for excellence, just competence. PLEASE GOD!
p.s. JX, how did the test go? Feeling relieved now that it's over? Wish you all the best!!! (:
Been on A&E these past 2 weeks and it's been a really rough time. I feel so out of my depth all the time, as this is the first time we are doing A&E ever and we've not really been taught much about managing the VERY acute stuff. I mean, I think I'm ok on majors... you know, with the collapses and the heart attacks and the abdominal pains... It's the minors that really throw me off. Nobody's taught us anything about sprains and strains and dislocated fingers. Nobody's taught us about handling facial grazes and lacerations and foreign bodies in various bodily orifices. But the doctors just expect us to go and see these patients for the first time (and alone!) and know what to do.
I've made a couple of silly mistakes, and the comments and looks I've been getting have been most unforgiving. I feel so tired from this rotation. I'm doing bloody shifts at all kinds of ungodly hours and yet the department is so busy that nobody has time to teach (not their fault of course) and I dont have the chance to learn.
Also, it's amazing what one month of holiday can do to your knowledge as well... the stuff that I learnt so hard for the finals have all conveniently dissipated into thin air. Where did all my knowledge go? I feel so frustrated. I just want to be a competent and safe practitioner. Why does this seem so difficult?
Being on A and E has been emotionally draining too. Too many people who are too sick come through and it gets really really difficult. Take last Thursday for example... a man who had just killed his wife stabbed himself with a pair of scissors and was brought in by the police. When I saw him, he had those scissors pushed all the way down to the hilt, sticking out of his chest, and blood all over his face. Not a very pretty sight at all. And the department was immediately thrown into a frenzy as the trauma team, the police, the lung specialists and every other k-po doctor/nurse was trying to find out what happened/trying to save this dude. When he was finally transferred to another hospital to be taken to theatre, another man came in with a cardiac arrest.
My consultant was keen for us medical students to help out with the resuscitation, so he had us taking turns doing chest compressions whilst he tried to intubate and ventilate the guy and the other doctors loaded him up with dose after dose of adrenaline. However, they decided that all was not looking too good for the man and thus invited his family to come and see him (possibly for the last time 'alive') whilst we attempted to save his life. So there I was, pumping this man's heart with all my might as his family stood at the side looking on in shock and sorrow. I prayed for him as we did what we had to do, until the consultant asked us what time it was.
8.49pm. My consultant shut the man's eyes for the last time. We walked out of the cubicle. The family completely broke down in front of us. It was an awful, awful time. This was definitely a slice of the medicine pie that I can do without.
Anyway, I guess that's enough of my unloading. I'm sorry if you didnt understand a single word of what has been written (I have tried to make it as layman as possible), but I wanted to get things off my chest more than anything. I hope I've not upset anyone with any graphic details whatsoever.
Medicine is great in many ways, but it sucks big time when you dont know what to do, and when your patients die on you.
I pray that God will help me through the rest of this difficult difficult rotation. I'm not asking for excellence, just competence. PLEASE GOD!
p.s. JX, how did the test go? Feeling relieved now that it's over? Wish you all the best!!! (:
Thursday, June 05, 2008
JA- when r u coming back?
YES! JACINTH, when are you coming back? Let's have a F4 gathering before KS goes for her studies k?
Just came back from US-Canada trip about a week ago. It was nice, but I was anticipating more.. haha.. I was anticipating lots of shopping, which I didn't have much time for. It was a good thing too.. cos I didn't really SPEND until siao.
Anyway, I'm too lazy to write anything now.. so I'll just post some photos. Enjoy!
I thought, this kind of bus dun exist anymore. Haha, doesn't it remind u of sesame street school bus?? aww so cool. I wonder how it feels to sit in one cos Singapore doesn't have one!! what a pity! I think this was taken in ... Philadelphia?
Nice huh? haha McCain was there when I was at washington!! I don't know if he was there.. cos I didn't see him. Aw, I was hoping to see him though. haha... It would be good if Obama was there too!
Pretty! I was so lucky to have a hotel jus right in front of the falls, cos this rainbow only came out after I went back to my hotel room. How I wish I could stay there longer.. maybe 1 or 2 more days? It's one of my favourite places, together with Boston and Bar Harbor, Maine (yummy lobster at relatively cheap price =D).
CN tower! I was lying on the glass floor.. damn cool. haha The glass looks rather ... safe. Cos there were fat guys jumping on it... and it didn't break. So it must be quite safe? Anyway I'm still alive. Actually, when you're on the observatory deck of CN tower or blah blah blah.. the buildings all look so small that... they look all abt the same. The only diff to me is... if you can identify prominent landmarks.. and if you recognise what you're looking at. I don't .. so they all look abt the same. But it's quite cool, I managed to catch a plane landing..while on the observatory deck. Hahz..
Notre Dame! It feels smaller than the one in Paris and it's slightly different too. I somehow feel that they use more wood in construction than in Paris. If I'm not wrong, this is in Montreal. It's confusing when u only stay in a place for 1-2 days. Somehow, you dun remember when you see this or that.
TIME TO FEAST! haha this cost 22+ USD only! it's quite cheap and fresh! yum!
ok skip skip skip.. lets go to Boston.
I didn't take a lot of pictures in Boston. But it was a pretty place. I like it more than NYC.
Yeah nice weather! It's a pity we cant go up to the torch. It'll be amazing. Anyway I didn't like New York city for.. some reasons. Somehow I feel that if you're rich and powerful, you probably can have a good life in NYC. Dun need to take the subway,... Oh dun take the lift at the subway station. It alwayz stink.
aw... the bull! haha... everyone's taking turns to take a photo of it. if only i can crop away all the rest of the ppl!...
okay, that's it. I'm too lazy to upload more. no more US trip for me.. until.. maybe another 10 years later? No money liao.
Just came back from US-Canada trip about a week ago. It was nice, but I was anticipating more.. haha.. I was anticipating lots of shopping, which I didn't have much time for. It was a good thing too.. cos I didn't really SPEND until siao.
Anyway, I'm too lazy to write anything now.. so I'll just post some photos. Enjoy!
I thought, this kind of bus dun exist anymore. Haha, doesn't it remind u of sesame street school bus?? aww so cool. I wonder how it feels to sit in one cos Singapore doesn't have one!! what a pity! I think this was taken in ... Philadelphia?
Nice huh? haha McCain was there when I was at washington!! I don't know if he was there.. cos I didn't see him. Aw, I was hoping to see him though. haha... It would be good if Obama was there too!
Pretty! I was so lucky to have a hotel jus right in front of the falls, cos this rainbow only came out after I went back to my hotel room. How I wish I could stay there longer.. maybe 1 or 2 more days? It's one of my favourite places, together with Boston and Bar Harbor, Maine (yummy lobster at relatively cheap price =D).
CN tower! I was lying on the glass floor.. damn cool. haha The glass looks rather ... safe. Cos there were fat guys jumping on it... and it didn't break. So it must be quite safe? Anyway I'm still alive. Actually, when you're on the observatory deck of CN tower or blah blah blah.. the buildings all look so small that... they look all abt the same. The only diff to me is... if you can identify prominent landmarks.. and if you recognise what you're looking at. I don't .. so they all look abt the same. But it's quite cool, I managed to catch a plane landing..while on the observatory deck. Hahz..
Notre Dame! It feels smaller than the one in Paris and it's slightly different too. I somehow feel that they use more wood in construction than in Paris. If I'm not wrong, this is in Montreal. It's confusing when u only stay in a place for 1-2 days. Somehow, you dun remember when you see this or that.
TIME TO FEAST! haha this cost 22+ USD only! it's quite cheap and fresh! yum!ok skip skip skip.. lets go to Boston.
I didn't take a lot of pictures in Boston. But it was a pretty place. I like it more than NYC.
Yeah nice weather! It's a pity we cant go up to the torch. It'll be amazing. Anyway I didn't like New York city for.. some reasons. Somehow I feel that if you're rich and powerful, you probably can have a good life in NYC. Dun need to take the subway,... Oh dun take the lift at the subway station. It alwayz stink.
aw... the bull! haha... everyone's taking turns to take a photo of it. if only i can crop away all the rest of the ppl!...okay, that's it. I'm too lazy to upload more. no more US trip for me.. until.. maybe another 10 years later? No money liao.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
*Yawn*
If I've gotta do anymore work I think I'm gonna collapse.
I HAVE NO LIFE LA.
It almost 10pm on a Friday evening and I'm still in the hospital library... And there's just me and this other man here... *shudders*
Anyway, our dearest kahsuan is going away to the US of A!!!! How can liddat one? Means the 2 of us are never gonna be in the same country for exactly 10 years lor! Alamak! But oh well, it's to the all prestigous Johns Hopskins university so I guess that's a good excuse for leaving? Things in the US are probably gonna be much different from here in the UK but one thing I know for sure is that Kah Suan will grow up so so so much over the coming few years away from home. And maybe even get married there! Haha. Seeing as her boyfriend will be there with her. Lol.
OK, I should prolly stop talking abt KS cos she might whack me for writing so much crap. Anyway, Jing is now somewhere very near to me... somewhere in Europe... but still too far away from me to actually see her! But it's nice to know that me and my good friend are not seperated my 10 000 miles. Lol. JX, you got go anywhere post graduation??? I've not heard from you in ages by the way, what's happening to you? Have you got a job for next year? Or a place on a post-grad degree or something? Let me know what your plans are for the future! I'm interested to know.
Ok, I think I've just effectively treated this blog as a message-board. But heck, like I care like that... 1/5 of this blog belongs to me!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha.
Yikes, the man in the library has just left so I'm all by myself now. I better get on and finish my work so I can go HOME and SLEEEEPPPPP!!!!
See yas all later.
Love.
I HAVE NO LIFE LA.
It almost 10pm on a Friday evening and I'm still in the hospital library... And there's just me and this other man here... *shudders*
Anyway, our dearest kahsuan is going away to the US of A!!!! How can liddat one? Means the 2 of us are never gonna be in the same country for exactly 10 years lor! Alamak! But oh well, it's to the all prestigous Johns Hopskins university so I guess that's a good excuse for leaving? Things in the US are probably gonna be much different from here in the UK but one thing I know for sure is that Kah Suan will grow up so so so much over the coming few years away from home. And maybe even get married there! Haha. Seeing as her boyfriend will be there with her. Lol.
OK, I should prolly stop talking abt KS cos she might whack me for writing so much crap. Anyway, Jing is now somewhere very near to me... somewhere in Europe... but still too far away from me to actually see her! But it's nice to know that me and my good friend are not seperated my 10 000 miles. Lol. JX, you got go anywhere post graduation??? I've not heard from you in ages by the way, what's happening to you? Have you got a job for next year? Or a place on a post-grad degree or something? Let me know what your plans are for the future! I'm interested to know.
Ok, I think I've just effectively treated this blog as a message-board. But heck, like I care like that... 1/5 of this blog belongs to me!!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha.
Yikes, the man in the library has just left so I'm all by myself now. I better get on and finish my work so I can go HOME and SLEEEEPPPPP!!!!
See yas all later.
Love.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
30th may is mdm tan's bday!
Tai kok jing juz informed me! So guess we have to bring a cake? Tai kok jing oso told me he remembers the bday cos its one day after his. Den cake for 2? Celebrate together??? Haha quite exciting.. cant believe mdm tan so sneaky! Lol!
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Monday, April 07, 2008
Hi guys!
Been really busy these few weeks. Not having enough sleep bcos of some shitty design 2 project - it was so bad that I had to work >24 hrs just to complete it.. and the thing is I didn't get to hand in on time. Was too tired on Thursday morning to continue working on it, that I decided to go back and sleep and accept the 1 day penalty.
Anyway, KS.. congrats on the outcome of ur application!... It's a tough decision, but I still think it's a great opportunity. Come to think of it, I regretted my decision for not taking up the Med course in Leicester. But it hurts to see your loved ones aging without u being ard...
Well, consider carefully.. girl~!
okay, shall stop blogging for the time being. Dun think it's a good idea to blog wateva I want here.. Just that.. I'm not at all excited abt the "challenges" that await me after graduation. HAIZ.
Been really busy these few weeks. Not having enough sleep bcos of some shitty design 2 project - it was so bad that I had to work >24 hrs just to complete it.. and the thing is I didn't get to hand in on time. Was too tired on Thursday morning to continue working on it, that I decided to go back and sleep and accept the 1 day penalty.
Anyway, KS.. congrats on the outcome of ur application!... It's a tough decision, but I still think it's a great opportunity. Come to think of it, I regretted my decision for not taking up the Med course in Leicester. But it hurts to see your loved ones aging without u being ard...
Well, consider carefully.. girl~!
okay, shall stop blogging for the time being. Dun think it's a good idea to blog wateva I want here.. Just that.. I'm not at all excited abt the "challenges" that await me after graduation. HAIZ.
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